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Name: Timothy R.
Birthday: 12/21/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: Playing soccer,drums, cooking, anything to do with fire and God.
Expertise: hoping some day be able to say drums and cooking.
Occupation: student...
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  soccer freak xix
Member Since:
7/12/2006
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| Some day I swear I hope I get rich and can pay my drum teach more because He is fucking amazing. Wish I wasn't so damn slow and was able to excel faster. so this weekend is going to be a bucket of sour cherries :) I'm going to be drumming like no other, I really want to start improving a heck ova lot more.
Off topic: I really want to start cutting again, the desire to do it is ridiculous almost completely over-powering. I really would love some vodka as well, I'm pretty sure if some one would give me a strawberry daiquiri I would do any thing. maybe not.
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| - Inner demon
Give me a song that I can sing to kill this inner demon that has taken me under its wing.
Violence, Frustration is all that is left of this so called heart with such desire inside to say I'm alive.
Give me a fight so I can take out my anger and work my vengeance on this beast simple tactics don't work anymore.
Inner demon Inner demon
I'm tired of this deception, My own shadow casts this beast for I am no more than vulture wait circling for the easy killing.
To feel this fake life that I am leading, what I have found and never wanting to let go.
For I lost truth when this demon I became. Fighting only to have become this halfhearted thing.
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| Fucking Hell that about sums up everything.
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| I really feel like we should talk. Never probably going to happen because you always shutdown the idea. Though I believe you are going to breakdown sooner or later. I won't amuse that you know or guessing that half the reason I'm frustrated is because of "you and I".
I really want a knife not having one is annoying.
I can't wait till soccer is done and I can workout whenever and how I want to.
I really wish I lived on my own.Woodstock is not an option has to be like Crystal lake or further away.
I think I'm going to really start putting in a helluva alot more time into drums, drumming.
I don't know really actually not been "happy" with anyone lately. Wish E was able to hang. Fucking missed that kid one fucking guy I actually talked about everything with and he's been gone and damn nearly missed everything.
Not that anyone cares but it is more concerning than my random physical pains is my shaking/trembling out brakes. They've been happening alot not sure why hope its just cause I've nervous lately. No clue why though but I feel it. Frustrating. Very frustrating.
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| *sigh* had in interesting conversation with my demons.
and... fuck I was doing some of my fighting training and damn am I slow and weak.
First Soccer Game doesn't want to make me play with the team for a while.
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